By Mel Cupit Cofounder of Mandella Healing Center
Mel’s Bali Reflection (Personal Quest Journey)
What do you imagine your “Personal Quest Journey” in Bali, will be like?
I come with no attachment to anything really I have no idea what it is that I will experience. I come with an open heart and open mind to experience all that I can. My desire is to break free from my self inflicted restraints which are many and at different levels. I know my ego rules, keeps me stuck, withheld and unfulfilled in my
beliefs. So I can say that my one true desire is to break through that physically, mental, emotionally and spiritually and come to a new place of courage, love, acceptance, and desire for my life.
Putting thoughts into action is a major step in actually experiencing the change so I would imagine the quest would address this at different levels. I imagine that it is extreme fun, breaking boundaries that you never new existed, deep soul searching.
How Different was this experience than what you imagined?
I really did not expect anything. I was more concentrated on my process of deciding to go and what that meant for me because it was huge.
I would say the one thing would be how simple yet heart bracingly powerful the Quest journey was and the ability of Catherina to constantly nail the truth, show up and drive it home in every minute. It was inspiring to see and be in it 24/7 with Gerry and Catherina, not a moment of opportunity missed.
It was simply about my process there were no rules and guidelines, no wrong and right, no dogma, religion, faith only simple truth about who I am and how I have wrapped myself in a cocoon of fear, have too’s, judgments and conditioning. It was about stripping this away, bit by bit, layer by layer.
How has the experience impacted your life at this point in your journey?
Coming here with no expectations other than wanting to shift some how from my present state of suffering, pain and confusion I had as idea what to expect.
How can words speak the unspeakable. I feel like I have done quiet a bit of personal work and achieved some sense of awareness and understanding but what I now realize is what I was missing was the basics. The foundations from which everything is built.
You cannot walk before you can crawl on the most obvious level. But you also cannot learn to crawl unto you have an awareness of your body and the subtleties and tricot awareness over how to use it and move it in the most effective way.
The foundation is the awareness of the simple things. However we give no importance to it in our culture. How to love, honor and be true to yourself. How to speak your truth, not compare and not judge yourself or another. The importance of following your heart and inner knowing is huge.
I have realized how much holding of energy there is in the unsaid. The freedom comes from the acceptance, expression, no judgment, fully giving, acknowledgment, receiving, joy and big love. Not identifying with pain, suffering and the mind
What would you say to anyone, considering their Personal Quest Journey in Bali?
This is a tool for anyone. If you are wanting to expand yourself, move beyond, fear, pain, suffering and un-fullfillment this will take you there.
You need to be committed to first really experiencing the pain and suffering to be true about what you are really feeling because there is nothing wrong with going into it, look at it in its fullness then let go. Then it is time to create from a new place. There are really no words that can describe the experience because it is totally experiential and the journey is different for everyone. But believe me if you say yes to yourself your perspective on life will change forever.